What if?

It has roughly been about 6 months that I lost someone I loved very much. By losing, I mean simply I pushed her into the arms of another man. Yes, I hear all the “Get the @#$! over it already”, but sometimes it just is not that simple. I don’t sit around with my head low. I have started a new company and I am working my ass off and if is finally showing some great progress and promise. I used to believe the only thing missing out of my life out of my life was a large amount of cash flow, but boy was I wrong. I was missing a large amount of good old fashioned love flow. I am happy and staying busy with business and she… well, lets just say she is a great deal of distance away, but not from my heart. It really took her to up and go away for me to realize she made my world great and not miserable, although I probably made her think that. The way she loved me … spoiled me and I took full advantage of it and wore it thin. It is nice to know that I am truly in love with someone, although she is no longer here. I know given another chance with her it would be final, but if for some reason it is to never be she will at the least know. I just hope in the future I can feel it again for someone else. If not then I guess a part of my soul dies and I continue on and go the grave … waiting and wondering ” What if”